There
is a universe in each and every one of us. Everything that composes
the human body makes a star, comes from a star, returns to the stars.
Carbon for our muscles. Iron for our blood. Calcium for our bones.
Oxygen for our breath. Light matter. Dark matter. We are both and we
are all, all at once, every moment. Forever. However, we are more. We
are fountains of energy. We are in constant movement, constantly
shining. Even when still, our blood and our breath stir within us...
and we come into our presence. We are omnipotent.
We
move in space-time. Time is movement. Space has phenomenal
properties. Many in which we are just beginning to understand. In
understanding space, we understand ourselves and what composes our
being, our life. When fortune tellers and philosophers say “It is
all in the stars” they are not fooling you. There is a great deal
of understanding that must be attained. Its almost overwhelming which
is why we have to detach from reason, the reasoning hampered by
physicality and the things based on what we only know. Thinking
outside ourselves and opening our reasoning to possibilities and what
we think of as impossibilities exposes us to opportunities to become
greater entities. This wave of thinking invites us to immortality.
It
is fundamental that without darkness, there can be no light. Life
possesses both, light and dark matter, light and dark energy. I'm not
sure scientist and astronomers would relate the same way I do. One
thing is for sure, the expansion of our universe was slowed by
gravity. Stars not only have a life- span, they also have a
death-span. Spans are simply periods that mark transformations as
time goes on. The outflow of energy from the central regions of the
star provides the pressure necessary to keep the star from collapsing
under its own weight, and the energy by which it shines. The larger
the star, the shorter the life span. When a star has fused all the
hydrogen in its core, nuclear reactions cease. This deprives the star
of the energy needed to support it. The star's internal nuclear fires
become increasingly unstable. The core begins to collapse into
itself. The star pulsates and throws off its outer layers,
enshrouding itself in a cocoon of gas and dust. It goes back to
black.
There
is far more that we do not know than we know. Captivating to think of
infinity to begin with, along with life thriving in infinite space.
We can say that some of us as stars collapse into ourselves because
the pressure of our own layers becomes too intense and we can not
bare all the energy we are projecting. Our core, the mass of our
nuclei still remain but we came from dark matter and we return to
dark matter... We go back to black.
What
happens when we go back to black? What happens when our core
collapses? We are all stars in different variations however, we are
all composed of the same elements. Some of us continue to shine for
billions of years and some of us return into dark energy. We enter
our death span sooner than others. We become a black hole.
Black
holes are anything but empty voids. They are remnants of larger stars
that die in a supernova explosion. The star leaves an ultra magnetic
nuclei in the center of its collapse that condenses all mass of
matter that falls into its gravitational well. Once anything is
under the influence of a holes gravitational orbit, nothing can
escape it, not even light... thus it goes into black.
How
do we detect a black hole? We can't really “see” in darkness. We
see darkness by the light that surrounds it. We can infer the
presence of black holes and study them by detecting the light matter
nearby. You want to find a black hole? Look for all the young stars
that surround it in clusters. Black holes have a dramatic influence
on the environment around them – tearing apart and devouring nearby
stars, stimulating the growth of new stars in some areas while
stalling it in others. When I think of a black hole, I think it is
quite possible to refer to it as an entity just as we are all stars.
Some entities have collapsed and their dark energy, their mass, their
gravity of attraction still thrives. We live in a life span and it
can go on for billions of years, more than we can ever measure.
Infinity. However, some of us have begun our death span. Some
entities have transformed as we all will. This concept transcends the
body. This is the energy that we come from in cosmology. Our body is
only a span but we were here before, we are here in the present, and
we will be here after. There is no such thing as death. Only life.
Eternal life.
What
happens when we encounter a black hole? I've thought about this for
many years. I've thought about some of the darkest energy I've ever
encountered in my life. Some of the darkest people I have ever loved.
The thing about a black hole is that it is infinitely dense whose
gravity is so strong that nothing can escape its immediate proximity,
not even light. With equal respect, some of us as hyper giant stars
have our own powerful gravitational orbit, just like our sun. We
attract and take care of our own cosmic communities, our own smaller
stars and our own children planets. Smaller black holes live among
our communities, our orbits but with purpose... to cultivate and
churn primordial energy. To make room for more stars, again, we
cannot see light without darkness. All life is a challenge.
What
happens if we are a strong, hyper giant powerful star with energy
billions of years old and we encounter a super massive black hole?
Stars and their fates happen. Before we meet our fate though, we have
the option of creating and sculpting our own destiny. Black holes
have a defining feature in their orbit better known as the “event
horizon”. It is the point where blackness takes over, the unknown.
It is where matter and light can only pass inward. It is where
space-time deforms and separates. The deformation becomes so great,
there are no paths that lead away from the hole. It is called the
event horizon because if an event were to occur within the boundaries
of this region, no information would be able to escape to the outside
observer, as if the event never even happened. A hyper giant star
and a super massive black hole do not make kind neighbors. One will
be stronger than the other. Either the monster black hole will exist
under the light of the sun in its orbit or the giant star will be
torn apart and swallowed by the black hole. There is a super massive
black hole in the middle of our own galaxy. Fortunately the power of
our sun is much stronger. When we as stars meet a black hole, we can
be swept up in its well and be enveloped by its darkness as if we
never even existed. As if we never even had anything to offer to our
immediate world and only become food, an extension of the center of
something wielding dark mass. Or we can overpower its gravity with
our own. Resistance. A black hole can either take our power and add
to its own, increasing in strength or we can choose our destiny and
not disappear.
We
live in the start of the “Golden Age.” Where everything
meaningful is happening. Where energy is bursting. “The best of
times, the worst of times,” as Charles Dickens put it. The period
in our cosmological time line where we can consider it the height of
summer, of thriving life, the fat of the land, the center. When the
best lives are coming into their best forms.
All
the same, we will transform into our death-span one day. We will be
black holes as well as we are stars. We will be defined by the light
that surrounds us. Our core will be powerfully massive and attractive
and we will gain from the light of the stars that nurture us. All
energy that we have expressed in our life-span, all experience, all
building factors that make us who we are will be magnified in
implosion. The transition of our own supernova. The love and love
lost that we have had will not be swept up in the event horizon but
will create it. Love is energy and it is what transcends all space
and time. It is what gives our energy purpose and it is what
transforms us from to light to darkness and back again. We don't
really “return” for that would be a marking of time in the past.
We live in all times, in all dimensions, in different forms. That is
the beauty of a black hole is that time stops within its body.. We
become the unknown and that leaves possibilities endless. That is the
beauty of stars, that we all have the energy of evolution. We
manifest all properties. If dark matter is a dark void feeding into
itself, then it has to have some “life” in order to maintain its
existence. Even in the darkest places, the depths of the universe...
there is life. Black holes are not voids but portals. They lead us
into transition. Both dark and light, fearful and intriguing, our
heart, our mind, our core will never die. We are light, and just as
every channel of light exist... We will go back to black.
BELIEVE IN THE DARK [mixed media, 36x24]
CONVERSION [mixed media, 24x36]
DETACHMENT (from fear, come wander with me) [mixed media, 24x36]
EVENT HORIZON (the portal and the gate keeper) [mixed media, 24x36]
IF YOU COULD SEE WHAT I SEE ( the black oracle) [mixed media, 24x36]
SEE IN THE DARK [mixed media, 24x36]
