The Haus Of Beaver: October 2015

There is a universe in each and every one of us. Everything that composes the human body makes a star, comes from a star, returns to the stars. Carbon for our muscles. Iron for our blood. Calcium for our bones. Oxygen for our breath. Light matter. Dark matter. We are both and we are all, all at once, every moment. Forever. However, we are more. We are fountains of energy. We are in constant movement, constantly shining. Even when still, our blood and our breath stir within us... and we come into our presence. We are omnipotent.

We move in space-time. Time is movement. Space has phenomenal properties. Many in which we are just beginning to understand. In understanding space, we understand ourselves and what composes our being, our life. When fortune tellers and philosophers say “It is all in the stars” they are not fooling you. There is a great deal of understanding that must be attained. Its almost overwhelming which is why we have to detach from reason, the reasoning hampered by physicality and the things based on what we only know. Thinking outside ourselves and opening our reasoning to possibilities and what we think of as impossibilities exposes us to opportunities to become greater entities. This wave of thinking invites us to immortality.

It is fundamental that without darkness, there can be no light. Life possesses both, light and dark matter, light and dark energy. I'm not sure scientist and astronomers would relate the same way I do. One thing is for sure, the expansion of our universe was slowed by gravity. Stars not only have a life- span, they also have a death-span. Spans are simply periods that mark transformations as time goes on. The outflow of energy from the central regions of the star provides the pressure necessary to keep the star from collapsing under its own weight, and the energy by which it shines. The larger the star, the shorter the life span. When a star has fused all the hydrogen in its core, nuclear reactions cease. This deprives the star of the energy needed to support it. The star's internal nuclear fires become increasingly unstable. The core begins to collapse into itself. The star pulsates and throws off its outer layers, enshrouding itself in a cocoon of gas and dust. It goes back to black.

There is far more that we do not know than we know. Captivating to think of infinity to begin with, along with life thriving in infinite space. We can say that some of us as stars collapse into ourselves because the pressure of our own layers becomes too intense and we can not bare all the energy we are projecting. Our core, the mass of our nuclei still remain but we came from dark matter and we return to dark matter... We go back to black.

What happens when we go back to black? What happens when our core collapses? We are all stars in different variations however, we are all composed of the same elements. Some of us continue to shine for billions of years and some of us return into dark energy. We enter our death span sooner than others. We become a black hole.

Black holes are anything but empty voids. They are remnants of larger stars that die in a supernova explosion. The star leaves an ultra magnetic nuclei in the center of its collapse that condenses all mass of matter that falls into its gravitational well. Once anything is under the influence of a holes gravitational orbit, nothing can escape it, not even light... thus it goes into black.

How do we detect a black hole? We can't really “see” in darkness. We see darkness by the light that surrounds it. We can infer the presence of black holes and study them by detecting the light matter nearby. You want to find a black hole? Look for all the young stars that surround it in clusters. Black holes have a dramatic influence on the environment around them – tearing apart and devouring nearby stars, stimulating the growth of new stars in some areas while stalling it in others. When I think of a black hole, I think it is quite possible to refer to it as an entity just as we are all stars. Some entities have collapsed and their dark energy, their mass, their gravity of attraction still thrives. We live in a life span and it can go on for billions of years, more than we can ever measure. Infinity. However, some of us have begun our death span. Some entities have transformed as we all will. This concept transcends the body. This is the energy that we come from in cosmology. Our body is only a span but we were here before, we are here in the present, and we will be here after. There is no such thing as death. Only life. Eternal life.

What happens when we encounter a black hole? I've thought about this for many years. I've thought about some of the darkest energy I've ever encountered in my life. Some of the darkest people I have ever loved. The thing about a black hole is that it is infinitely dense whose gravity is so strong that nothing can escape its immediate proximity, not even light. With equal respect, some of us as hyper giant stars have our own powerful gravitational orbit, just like our sun. We attract and take care of our own cosmic communities, our own smaller stars and our own children planets. Smaller black holes live among our communities, our orbits but with purpose... to cultivate and churn primordial energy. To make room for more stars, again, we cannot see light without darkness. All life is a challenge.

What happens if we are a strong, hyper giant powerful star with energy billions of years old and we encounter a super massive black hole? Stars and their fates happen. Before we meet our fate though, we have the option of creating and sculpting our own destiny. Black holes have a defining feature in their orbit better known as the “event horizon”. It is the point where blackness takes over, the unknown. It is where matter and light can only pass inward. It is where space-time deforms and separates. The deformation becomes so great, there are no paths that lead away from the hole. It is called the event horizon because if an event were to occur within the boundaries of this region, no information would be able to escape to the outside observer, as if the event never even happened. A hyper giant star and a super massive black hole do not make kind neighbors. One will be stronger than the other. Either the monster black hole will exist under the light of the sun in its orbit or the giant star will be torn apart and swallowed by the black hole. There is a super massive black hole in the middle of our own galaxy. Fortunately the power of our sun is much stronger. When we as stars meet a black hole, we can be swept up in its well and be enveloped by its darkness as if we never even existed. As if we never even had anything to offer to our immediate world and only become food, an extension of the center of something wielding dark mass. Or we can overpower its gravity with our own. Resistance. A black hole can either take our power and add to its own, increasing in strength or we can choose our destiny and not disappear.

We live in the start of the “Golden Age.” Where everything meaningful is happening. Where energy is bursting. “The best of times, the worst of times,” as Charles Dickens put it. The period in our cosmological time line where we can consider it the height of summer, of thriving life, the fat of the land, the center. When the best lives are coming into their best forms.

All the same, we will transform into our death-span one day. We will be black holes as well as we are stars. We will be defined by the light that surrounds us. Our core will be powerfully massive and attractive and we will gain from the light of the stars that nurture us. All energy that we have expressed in our life-span, all experience, all building factors that make us who we are will be magnified in implosion. The transition of our own supernova. The love and love lost that we have had will not be swept up in the event horizon but will create it. Love is energy and it is what transcends all space and time. It is what gives our energy purpose and it is what transforms us from to light to darkness and back again. We don't really “return” for that would be a marking of time in the past. We live in all times, in all dimensions, in different forms. That is the beauty of a black hole is that time stops within its body.. We become the unknown and that leaves possibilities endless. That is the beauty of stars, that we all have the energy of evolution. We manifest all properties. If dark matter is a dark void feeding into itself, then it has to have some “life” in order to maintain its existence. Even in the darkest places, the depths of the universe... there is life. Black holes are not voids but portals. They lead us into transition. Both dark and light, fearful and intriguing, our heart, our mind, our core will never die. We are light, and just as every channel of light exist... We will go back to black.